I love this girl; you know? I love her dearly and think she’s the best girlfriend I’ve ever had the delight of sharing life with. …but sometimes she is just so god-damned unbearable! I can’t even put my finger completely on it. I can’t identify it. I think part of it has to do with the fact that she’s 20, and acts like a 20 year old. (…and will never admit when she’s wrong [unless you smash your head against the wall and bleed a little. or just jump off the building. she might admit it then; when you're half way down.] …and thinks it’s cute to say “I love you, frustrated.” instead of addressing the real issue [read: continue the conversation])
…but I don’t really know what that means. It could be more character than anything, but I think she has amazing character. Sometimes I just think she does things (nope… I know) that are just, well, dumb. …I suppose. …or immature. …or, maybe, just plain stubborn!
Two glasses of wine (okay, three) at dinner last night, and I look right past it ;) I just don’t care. …I wasn’t really too keen on that solution though. And briefly mentioning it (damn that wine!), I know that she understands. Being in a relationship where all conflict has ceased is not a good thing at all. Someone has quit. They just don’t care anymore. Deep down inside, they really want to throw you out of the window or go drinking with their boys, and that’s not really healthy. (the throwing you out the window part. …not so healthy for you at least.)
I love her and I know this because sometimes I want to run circles around the room in frustration, waving my arms, and blowing steam out of my ears. …because I love you so much that it drives me nuts the way this conversation (or lack there of) is going.
The wine sure as hell helped last night though! Wow.
